My go to place!
Sometimes you’re in a dire need of Sukoon and you can’t find it anywhere. This happens with me too. After all, I am a human being. On top of that I inherited emotionsshit from my Momsy! Nope I am not bitching about it. But sometimes it really sucks. Especially when you get anxiety attacks every now and then. Nothing can sooth you (except momsy’s magical touch). Still you feel you have many W’s whirlpooling in your mind. Per usual I was blank and didn’t know what to do with my anxiety attacks and sleeping disorder. Even sleeping pills stopped working on me. I could drink my way out but didn’t want to escape and find an easy solution. Then I moved to another place, I realized that I totally lost myself in the last few years. I was no longer the person I was back then. After a long time I cried for myself. Yes, I did throw a little pity party! My mother once told me if you look within yourself you’ll find the right questions, but if you want answers to those questions you have to look outside. I got up, dusted off my jeans and went to my happy place. Marine lines. I sat there alone and recalled what I used to be. How I used to bunk my classes and come here. How I used to share all my secrets here. How I used to find my ultimate Sukoon here. Sound of crashing waves. Vast sea. Endless water. Like an ocean I too had many secrets buried in me. My tears and the water of the sea were both salty so I found familiarity there. So Like both are made from the same element. It told me salty water should belong to me only, not your eyes. It told me I can not change and will be the same forever but you and especially your soul can. My soul was altered by the conversation. Maybe I was so used to living in nostalgia that I forgot to live my life. Now like Mumbai’s lifeline I am also back on track with an altered soul. Maybe my family or friends don’t recognize me anymore. Maybe nobody recognizes me anymore. But that’s fine, your life should make sense to only you. Every now and then whenever I need a moment of Sukoon I go to my go to place after all -
Raftar-e-zindagi se churaya hua lamhebhar ka Sukoon hi toh hai tu!
