Ever slipping sand!
I don’t desire anything mostly. Yeah, insanely sane I am. But there is one particular thing which has always attracted me since my childhood. An hourglass. Back then when clocks were not the talk of the town, an hourglass had the main role. My great granny used to have this when she used to sit to offer prayers. (We, Jain people, use this to measure time for the prayers.) I always wanted it from her. Haha but couldn’t get my hands on it. With the time I grew up and forgot about it completely. Once I went to someone’s place and it was a damn lavish place. Each and everything was so amazing and well organized but one particular caught my attention was a wooden hourglass in the showcase. I wanted to steal it but I wasn’t a thief and my stupid subconsciousness didn’t allow me to even touch it. (Still regret that I didn’t). The sight of that hour glass threw me down to the memory lane. I still remember the conversation I had with that old lady. I told her it stopped and she looked at me with some curious gaze and said turn it upside down. I didn’t want to touch it but still I just turned it upside down and closed the door of the showcase. While leaving the place I turned and saw the sand was slipping again. The thought of having one hourglass always lingered on my mind. Again many years passed and I moved to Mumbai. I told my best friend (Now ex best friend) that I really wanted this one. I looked for it many times but couldn’t find one. He was my Genie and only best friend who used to grant my all wishes. Haha. (Too bad we’re not together anymore.) One day he went to Palitana and saw an hourglass in a small shop. He instantly bought it and gifted it to me on my birthday. :) He knew I am always a sucker for such antique shit.
I have kept it on my dressing table and so I can keep an eye on it daily. I always turn it upside down and let sand slip again. Isn’t our timeline same? Ever slipping sand? Now I wish I could stop it. I will add water and make it stop. Wet sand won’t slip right? Will my tears wet the time and make it stop? Maybe no. Or should I ask for a little rain from God? We should never live in a delusional world right? I know I know stupid shit to do. But then I wanted to make it stop; I just turned it on its side. Stopping the time in that moment. Ironically, from sideways it looks like a number 8. A symbol of infinity. It won’t slip away; it has to stay still like this till eternity. Maybe it will until I again let it slip away.
Maybe I never searched for it in the right place. Or maybe I didn’t want to buy it for myself but wanted it from someone else. That’s why I never found my ways to have it for myself otherwise when I really wanted to stop the sand, didn’t I find my ways to make it stop any how? It has to be like this until I see you again!
